Valentine's is almost here and it's official: I'm dating the Zeitgeist. This is a surprise. We'd been casual and "it's complicated" since Trump won the White House. Our typical conversation had been along these lines:
Me: "Black lives matter, right, honey?"
Zeitgeist: "Not all cops are bad. They don't all shoot unarmed people."
Me: "I know but... well, I am glad we're not in Hillary's nuclear war with Russia."
Z: "'Black Lives Matter' movement is bankrolled behind the scenes by George Soros. You know that, right?"
Me: "Darling, I love you but do you have to always mention Soros?"
Z: "Destabilizing society with identity politics distracts the public from noticing crimes that go right to the top."
Me: Sweetie, you get so uptight about stuff. Hey, let's go for a walk! There's a nice march downtown. Here, just put on this pink pussy hat I knitted for you--"
Zeitgeist and I took a break for about a week. I thought it was over. Then out of the blue he calls and asks if I'd punch a Nazi.
I scoffed, "No, of course not. Nazis have guns," but then he chuckled and directed me to a video online of Milo Yiannopoulos. What can I say? I'd missed the Zeitgeist, our off-the-cuff joking and the intensity of our interactions. I'd like to say I'd never punch anyone... but a floppy gay British toff who's afraid of feminists does make an easy target. "Well, I guess, if he disses me for having an abortion, I might show him my fist."
I thanked her for her free speech and hung up. She hadn't taken into account that Valentine's Day is just around the corner. I know it's corny but I just love to celebrate love.
I moonlighted for a florist one year and delivered bouquets in office buildings; it made an impression when I saw the faces of all the people at their desks who didn't get flowers. Since then, I love to greet anyone with "Happy Valentine's Day" as if it were our secret rendezvous and surprise party! Our hello can be an invisible magic flower of camaraderie. We might share a private eye roll, meaning, "Valentine's, ha! Romance ain't what it's cracked up to be. Ha ha!" In that moment we've created a sparkle of affection.
So I balk at everyone suddenly throwing punches at this time of year. Maybe they spend more time playing video games than I, so they imagine their punches are like killing Hitler as a baby and thereby saving millions of Jews, Roma, disabled people, gay guys and resisters.
Zeitgeist needs me!
"Resisters" in the current political climate is ironic. Resisting Trump is something the Democrats could have done better before they cheated Bernie Sanders and sabotaged democracy with DNC election fraud. "The (quote) Resistance" is spearheaded by shills who exemplify the entrenched corruption of the establishment. They're as counter-culture as the Starbucks whose windows their dupes and paid goons may smash.
Milo Yiannopoulos is a goon of another sort, a gay man using his skills as a stand-up comedian to trigger identity-politics clashes. But why isn't it politically correct to protest - as he does - Muslim countries that punish homosexuality with death? Maybe it's just the Valentine's mood I'm in; I'd abort his baby but Milo's judgment that Islam oppresses women seems spot-on.
Sexist clothes are a cultural imposition... but cute
So anyway... long story short... Zeitgeist and I are back together.
For instance, I find nutritionists annoying. "Should I eat a vegetable, or not?" OMG, what if I eat a DUCK?! O.M.G!!! Wholesome people can be so BORING.
I've also done terrible things. My mom ran over the back end of a frog on the driveway, and I ~ age 7 ~ wanted to see what happened if I put the still-breathing frog in the cage with my pet rats.
As an incest survivor, I'm technically absolved for having tortured animals as a kid. Abused children often pick on nonhuman persons even lower on the totem pole, a case of what psychologists term "identifying with the oppressor," a version of Stockholm Syndrome where the victim tries to make sense of depravity by acting it out.
But now I fail to identify with oppressors. The blood and guts of that poor frog are a sort of credential; I still ache with regret at what I did to him. And I can't begin to imagine how anyone can rape and torture toddlers as they do in the global pedophile rings that are finally getting their due of public exposure.
"Total destruction" Alefantis threatens to murder Pizzagate researcher*
What I now identify with is guardian angels. I even have the temerity to identify with the army of valiant citizen investigators who are taking up the slack of corrupt mainstream media. One of these amateur journalists apparently just received a death threat from the power-broker owner of the pizza restaurant who earned Pizzagate its name.
I can be a bully to nutritionists and frogs. So I can calculate why that Pizzagate researcher was targeted: he's not exactly intimidating.
Why would anyone harm a child? I can't really wrap my mind around the CIA satanic-ritual MK-Ultra elite New World Order angles. But I can imagine why you hurt someone weaker.
Maimed souls have curiosity in the place of compassion.
I suspect this not just because it was curiosity that made me carry that squished frog to my rats' cage. I've seen interviews with Nazi collaborators who shot my relatives in Lithuania. I watched documentaries about Japanese soldiers from the Rape of Nanking. They could shrug, "What did I feel as I did the deed? Just... curious."
I have a dream: What if we could make monsters feel curious about how to love strangers so much that you risk your life for them?
Thanks so much to everyone whose heart goes out to the suffering children.
PS. I'll try to think good thoughts about nutritionists.
The author VC Bestor is Director of the non-profit FangedWilds.org.
She taught sex-abuse awareness to kids in Portland, Oregon area schools for five years.
She eats well enough. No pizza, at any rate. She laughs a lot because that's how you survive love... and worse.
* Here's a sample of the research citizens are doing on the pedo rings, if you don't know how meticulous they can be:
Evidence has emerged that the U.S. State Department is tied to a child trafficking operation involving Billionaire pedophile Jeffrey Epstein.
According to internet detectives, one of Epstein’s aircraft which was
linked to the trafficking of underage girls is actually owned and
operated by the U.S. State Department. Voat.co reports: Billionaire Jeffrey Epstein, who has been accused of trafficking
underage females shared the tail number of his Bell Long Ranger 206L3
helicopter (tail number N474AW) with a U.S. State Department OV-10D
Bronco.
According to the Federal Aviation Administration (FAA)
registration database, Epstein’s Bell helicopter and the Bronco owned by
the U.S. State Department and contracted to the private military
company Dyncorp for “counter-insurgency” and “counter-narcotics”
operations in Larandia, Colombia used the same N474AW tail number.
According to a flight manifest filed by Epstein’s pilot David Rodgers
on August 6, 2002, the Bell helicopter (N474AW) flew from Epstein’s
Zorro Ranch in New Mexico to the Double Eagle II airport outside of
Albuquerque.
Complicating matters, is the fact that a Cessna
Model P210N aircraft also uses tail number N474AW. That aircraft,
according to FAA records, was registered with the tail number N474AW on
August 1, 2014 and is owned by Centurion Aviation LLC, 677 Greentree
Lane, Ada, Michigan.
The previous plane listed by the FAA as a
“Multiple Record” N474AW assignee was the Bronco used by Dyncorp under
contract to the owner: “United States Department of State, 1038 S.
Patrick Drive #985, Patrick Air Force Base, Brevard County, Florida
32925-3516.” The Bronco was reported by the FAA to be registered on
October 21, 1997 and de-registered on May 14, 2010. However, the Bronco
registered as N474AW crashed while flying a drug eradication mission in
Colombia on February 6, 2006. The name of the pilot, who survived but
was badly injured after ejecting, was not released due to “national
security” reasons.
Rodgers's manifest for August 6, 2002 lists
the Bell helicopter flight from Epstein's Zorro Ranch to Double Eagle II
as flying under the tail number of N474AW
Rodgers’s manifest for
August 6, 2002 lists the Bell helicopter flight from Epstein’s Zorro
Ranch to Double Eagle II as flying under the tail number of N474AW
Rodgers’s manifest for August 6, 2002 lists the Bell helicopter flight
from Epstein’s Zorro Ranch to Double Eagle II as flying under the tail
number of N474AW. It is also noteworthy that unlike other Epstein planes
piloted by Rodgers and which included as passengers Bill Clinton, Alan
Dershowitz, model Naomi Campbell, Clinton economic adviser Ira
Magaziner, actor Kevin Spacey, Sandy Berger, and Larry Summers, no
passengers are listed on the Zorro to Double Eagle one-way helicopter
flight.
FAA records and Epstein’s pilot’s flight manifest
indicate that Epstein’s Bell helicopter used the same tail number of
N474AW. This was the same tail number used until 2006 by State
Department contractor Dyncorp for counter-insurgency operations in Latin
America.
The congruence of Epstein’s Bell N474AW and Dyncorp’s
Bronco N474AW is noteworthy. In 2002, the year Epstein’s aircraft fleet
stands accused of flying underage teen girls, some between the ages of
12 and 15, coincides with Dyncorp’s trafficking in underage females
between the ages of 12 and 15 from Kosovo and Bosnia in the Balkans.
One Dyncorp whistleblower reported to The Washington Times’s Insight
magazine’s Kelly O’Meara in 2002 the following on one Dyncorp employee
in Bosnia: “[he] owned a girl who couldn’t have been more than 14 years
old. It’s a sick sight anyway to see any grown man [having sex] with a
child, but to see some 45-year-old man who weighs 400 pounds with a
little girl, it just makes you sick.”
Tail number N474AW has been shared between Epstein’s Bell helicopter like the one in this photo:
epsteins-bell-helicopter
Cessna:
hocqx6
and State Department Bronco:
bronco
The descriptions of sex between adult males and underage females by
Dyncorp employees in Bosnia in the 2000-2002 time frame coincides with
descriptions of sex between Epstein and his influential friends and
similarly-aged young girls on Epstein’s aircraft and residences in Palm
Beach, Florida; New Mexico; and on the island of Little Saint James in
the U.S. Virgin Islands. Among the “Jane Does” filing suit against the
U.S. government for concluding a sweetheart Non-Prosecution Agreement
(NPA) between Epstein, his co-conspirators, and the U.S. Justice
Department are a number of females with Slavic-sounding first names like
“Tatianna”and “Natalya” and Slavic last names like Metrovitch,
Malyshov, and Mulinska. Such names are found in countries like Bosnia
and Kosovo, where Dyncorp employees were also trafficking in teenage
girls.
Epstein’s sex slave, who he groomed to be his special
assistant and even his pilot, was recruited from Yugoslavia at the age
of 14 in what was the very same embattled former country where Dyncorp
was active in trafficking girls of the same age.
As with the
Justice Department’s and FBI’s investigation of Epstein, the U.S. Army’s
Criminal Investigation Division (CID) largely buried the investigation
of Dyncorp and underage female trafficking. The connection of N474AW to
both Epstein and Dyncorp may be much more than mere coincidence. In the
world of criminal investigations, this type of information is known as
“leads” that often connect to hard evidence of criminal conspiracies.
"Dyncorp is a fucking CIA front!"
